crazy weekend!

This weekend we decided to drive down to OU to see my little sister when I got off work on Saturday.
I ended up working over until 5, and then we hit the road and arrived right at 8pm.
I quickly changed clothes and then we walked uptown and settled on Casa Nuevo Cantina for dinner.
Hour wait.
What can I see, yummy organic mexican in a small college town?
We had a couple drinks at the bar while we waited and got caught up.
They had a HUGE beer selection and we thought it was hilarious that there were several Mexican beer selections and then an Old Milwaukee thrown in the mix.
Endless entertainment.
After we sat down, we ordered KILLER margaritas.
They were small enough but HIT HARD.
Especially since I hadn't had much to eat all day (busy at work and then rushing to get to OU)
PS...margaritas are LOTS of WW points and so I only had one.
me & hubs at dinner
After dinner the real "college drinking" began.
I actually tried really really really hard to be good and remember my goals I have set for myself.
I also knew that I have 49 flex points and let myself use them.
You have to LIVE, you know ;)
(And I still have 6 weekly flex points left after the weekend!!)

We met up with Chrissy (roommate), Colin, Drew and some other random people at Pigskin.
Its the newest bar in Athens and a really cool place.
The best part was, I never ended up buying another drink all night.
Drew was wasted and kept buying me drinks, even though hubby was right there with
It was great times :)
We ended up staying out until 2a and then I was exhausted......
Lisa, Me, Chrissy, Drew & Hubs @ Pigskin
so we hit up Big Mama's Burritos for some drunk food and headed back to the apt.
We then stayed up chatting and watching Jersey Shore for a while.

What a GREAT night!
I just hope I didn't gain back all I lost ;)
Im sure I didn't though..

11 weeks to go!

WI yesterday.
Lost 3.6 pounds this week!
61.2 TOTAL!

25.6 to go.
11 weeks
2.32 | wk

i will be under 200 @ 30!
i can do it
i will do it

best thing is....i could get in to my size 16 jeans yesterday!
they look too tight to wear still, but it won't be long til I am in them.
especially since i can only wear my 18s when they come out of the dryer...otherwise they hang off my butt and look really big.
i really need a 17 or something ;)

it just feels really good to not need a 20something anymore.
even though a 16 is probably still BIG to most some people.
it's small to me.
i don't think i've been that size since i was 15.
(that would be 14 years ago!)

i just really can't believe the success I have had.
i feel like a totally different person.
i am really excited to go to my dr in 2 weeks.
i haven't seen him in over a year, when i was 61.2 pounds heavier.
hes going to be ecstatic when he sees me!

that feels wonderful!
i feel fantastic!

oh and ps.....i need to find a new store to shop at.
i can no longer wear lane bryant clothes......
i am just too scared to try a "normal" store for fear that i can't quite fit into a XL.
i just need to face my fears and give it a try, huh?
i feel like 10 more pounds and i just might be there.

island boy.

my future home!
He left Maine 'cause he needed a change,
And he was desperate to rearrange priorities,
And he thought the sea,
Would be the best place to be.

So he saved his money, sold his car,

And with his eye set on a southern star,
He got the courage to follow his heart,
He set out for a brand new start.

He's an island boy,

Now he's an island boy
Livin his life where stress is the enemy
Now he's an island boy,
A stone's throw from St. Croix,
He's finally found his piece of serenity.

Now he tends bar, at the Old Mango,

And he see's tourists come and go,
With their pressed pants and camera case,
Too much sunburn on their face.

Now he watches the snow on CNN,

With all of his dope smokin friends,
Just look at the Hell they must be in
He swears he won't go back again.

'Cause, He's an island boy,

Now he's an island boy.
Livin his life where stress is the enemy
Now he's an island boy,
A stone's throw from St. Croix,
He's finally found his piece of serenity.

You know the love of his life has always been Emily,

She loves the the man she sees.

In her island boy,

Now he's an island boy
Livin his life where stress is the enemy
Now he's an island boy,
A stone's throw from St. Croix,
He's finally found his piece of serenity.

Island boy.

A stone's throw from St. Croix.

Island boy, island boy, island boy...

Ever since we went on our last vacation with our friends in July 2009 I have been obsessed with living in the Caribbean.  I would love more than anything to sell all of my possessions and live the life of "bare necessity" down in the sunshine.  Working and doing what you can to make a life for yourself.  We rely so heavily on "things" and at times it just gets so overwhelming to me.  Life in general does. 

wee bit of me wednesday....on thursday....shhhh

{one} how tall are you?
i'm 5'8" ....well, 5'7 1/2" or so, so I just go with 5'8"

{two} besides bills, what do you spend most of your money on?
we go out to dinner a lot.  Too much really, especially since we love cooking at home.  I am just horrible at planning meals.  Anyone have advice on that?  Especially for 2?  Otherwise, on dog grooming, groceries for lunch, gas, and then random things we want|need.

{three} what are your three favorite websites?
hmm… etsy, WW and iheartfaces

{four} what brand of tennis shoes do you prefer?
new balance

{five} what food can you absolutely not stand to eat?
coconut.  yuck.

{six} How many pairs of jeans do you own?
just one.  see weight loss post....when Im changing sizes frequently, it doesn't make sense to own more.

{seven} if you could have any job, what would it be?
one where I work from home!!!!

{eight} have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
yes!  twice now.

{nine} how many pillows do you sleep with?
just one. 

{ten} on a scale of 1-5, how organized are you?
5!  I am crazy like that.  Although right now I feel like a -5.  I've been so insanely busy @ work that I don't have time to be organized and its making me CRAZY!!!

okay, your turn!

Thoughts on Thursday : Music

Its such a HUGE part of my life.
I listen to it pretty much all day, every day.
In my office, in the car, at home.
It can bring back memories of times well spent with loved ones and friends.
It can also take a horrible mood and make me laugh.

There are so many songs that I love right now.
Im only sharing 3....

One of my all-time favorites is our song 
Keith Urban | Making Memories of Us
And I'm gonna love you
Like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust
Makin' memories of us

We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way

I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits
But it's alright now

One of my most favorite {inspirational} songs right now is....
Lady Antebellum | Hello World

Every day I drive by a little white church
It’s got these little white crosses
Like angels in the yard
Maybe I should stop on in, say a prayer
Maybe talk to God like He is there
Oh, I know He’s there
Yeah, I know He’s there

Well hello world
How you been
Good to see you, my old friend
Sometimes I feel as cold as steel
And broken like I’m never gonna heal
And I see a light, a little grace, a little faith unfurls
Well hello world

Sometimes I forget what living’s for
And I hear my life through my front door
And I breathe it in
Oh, I’m home again
And I see my wife
Little boy and little girl
Hello world
Hello world

Well the empty disappears
I remember why I’m here
Just surrender and believe
I fall down on my knees
Well hello world

 And .... my happy song right now is a bit inappropriate because of language, but it reminds me of OU.  Being with my sister, her roommate, my husband, and my brother-in-law and his sister.  It just has such a good beat to it and reminds me of the great times!
Cee Lo Green | F*ck You
I see you driving 'round town with the girl I love
and I'm like,
I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough
I'm like,
And fuck her too."
I said,
"If I was richer, I'd still be with ya"
Ha, now ain't that some shit?
(Ain't that some shit?)
And although there's pain in my chest
I still wish you the best
With a...

Yeah I'm sorry,
I can't afford a Ferrari,
But that don't mean I can't get you there.
I guess he's an Xbox and I'm more Atari,
But the way you play your game ain't fair.
I pity the fool
That falls in love with you
(Oh shit she's a golddigger)
(Just thought you should know nigga)
I've got some news for you.
Yeah go run and tell your little boyfriend.

Now I know,
That I had to borrow,
Beg and steal and lie and cheat.
Trying to keep ya,
tyring to please ya.
'Cause being in love with your ass ain't cheap.
I pity the fool
That falls in love with you
(Oh shit she's a golddigger)
(Just thought you should know nigga)
I've got some news for you.
I really hate your ass right now.

Now baby, baby, baby, why d'you wanna wanna hurt me so bad?
(So bad, so bad, so bad)
I tried to tell my mamma but she told me
"This is one for your dad."
(Your dad, your dad, your dad)
Whhhhy lady?
I love you.
I still love you.

the {almost} 7 month update

I have been on WW now for {almost} 7 months.
I have lost 57.6 pounds!

286.8 (WOW!)
bmi = 43.6

pant size = 26
shirt size = 22|24

Bethany, Bryan, ME @ my heaviest ever! and Alan

229.2 (WOW!)
bmi =34.8 {-8.8}
pant size = 18 {-4 sizes!}
shirt size = 14|16 {-2 sizes}

This is already a month old, but its the most current one I have right now!  Plus, my clothes are too big :)

Overall, I feel AMAZING!
I can't believe the changes I have made, and how its made me feel.

My "ideal weight" is 170 which is still 59 to go!
Right now I am just focused on getting under 200 :)
I was hoping to reach that by my 30th Birthday in April, but that would be over 2 pounds a week.  Not saying it can't be done.....I am going to give it my all, but I am also not going to be devastated if I don't get there.  I've killed every other goal I've set, so really, I can do this!

12 weeks to go!
29.2 pounds to go!
2.416/week to go!
I had 3.2 this past week, so it can be done :)

christmas love

I am finally getting through a lot of my pictures.  I am into December.  Soon I will have a recap up of my Christmas.  Honestly, it was the best Christmas of my life.  The common theme was that my mom was absent.  Isn't that sad?  Whatever it is, doesn't really matter, because I was truly happy for the first time in many years at the holidays.


inner happiness is the fuel of success

I am listening|reading the secret right now.
I am focusing on all things positive to change my life.

I have disgusted myself with all my negative talk lately and it has stopped.

I am positive.
I am grateful.
I am happy.


I have lost 57.6 pounds!!!
The problem with strong people is that no one ever knows when they need help....

My emotions are so out of control lately.

I changed I haven't been to my therapist in 4 weeks.
I go back Feb 2nd...didn't realize how much I need it.

Im trying to stay positive.......its rough.

Best face photo from 2010 ~ I heart faces theme

This week's theme at I Heart Faces is Best Face Photo of 2010.  This is the first time I have entered a challenge here, but I decided that I am going for it in 2011!  It will help me to take more pictures of faces :)

So, for 2010, its still difficult to pick my favorite!  This is the one that I keep coming to  They are the hub's cousin's kids.  (got it?)  I don't even know what that makes them to me...but they are fun!

siblings...can't you tell?


Happy New Year!

It is the 2nd day of the new year and I have been thinking a lot about what resolution I want to make for this year.  It must be something that I can genuinely stick to and follow through with the entire year.  I always have brilliant ideas, but by the end of January, they are completely forgotten.

So, this year, I am picking just one thing.  And that one thing is......

Live each moment.

I spend so many days worrying about what is coming next.  I need to concentrate on each day and every small moment.  I need to appreciate things more.  I think if I really time the time to appreciate the small things, it will help me to appreciate the big things more.  (Not that I don't already....but you know what I mean!)

breathe deeply.
live loudly.
love boldly.
laugh obnoxiously.


life is way too precious to wish away.  I really need to stop doing that and focus on the greatness of every moment.